Walking into Starbucks. The smell of coffee and seeing faces of different people laughing, reading, studying. Then it hits me. We haven’t talked in two months. I don’t even know what to say if we do talk again. Something happen along the way of our friendship that we both took it for granted. All the times when we would call or text each other to just go and sit somewhere and have coffee and just talk. All that is gone. Memories is all we have.
We have been friends for so long. We both work for the same company. We share similar stories. But one thing is very different though. My love for Jesus. He is my everything. And my friend, I still consider her my friend. Is not a believer. And yes, at times I would question our friendship and if it should continue. But Jesus would keep putting her in my heart and allowing this friendship to grow. I know He was using me to show her His love. I took her to church a couple of times, told her about my relationship with Jesus. She was okay with it. As long has I didn’t take her to church anymore.
I let her know my feelings. She knows why I have been so distant lately. And why I was hurt for what she did. But she still hasn’t called or text me. I think this is why its hurting me now more than before. But now I am just waiting on Him. This is His friendship not mine. I am not angry at her. I just miss her.
I have asked Jesus to help me heal from this. I’m still not sure if this was just a season for my friend and I. And perhaps that season has passed. Its hard to be friends with people that do not share your love for Jesus. The same values. The same God fearing convictions. This is why in 2 Corinthians 6:14 it clearly reads, “Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness?” But see here is the thing. Everywhere you go. To school, work, gym, shopping. There are non believers right? What do we suppose to do? Just sit and stay in our Jesus bubble and wait for God to come back?! No. This is not what Jesus wants from each of us. He wants us to show others His love, His Grace. The same way someone did to us when we were non believers. I don’t preach to anybody. I am not called to be a preacher. I am called be a light in this world. We all are.
I am giving this and everything else to Jesus. His hand has always been on this friendship. And His plans for me will always be better. I pray that God continues to speak to my friend. One day she will fall in love like I did. With Jesus! I may not be there on that day when God speaks to her heart and all the angels will be rejoicing! But I know those seeds were planted! All Glory and Honor to God!